I Am Lessaray
Why Lessaray?
I was introduced to an author by my first husband’s mother. That author was Anne McCaffery. The book was Dragonflight. The main character is a fiery woman named Lessa. She has always been an inspiration to me in the back of my mind. When I started playing MMORPGs (Everquest was my first and I now play World of Warcraft.), I had to choose a name, a persona. Without a thought, Lessaray. The second part was Ray for my dad. This is how I am becoming Me.
Attitude Included
My Story, My Journey
I am 50 years old and have been looking to better my mental health since around 2004. I am the only child of my mother’s and the oldest of my father’s three kids. I was raised by my mother and my step-dad and his parents. For 30 years, Don was Dad. I also had a large, loving, extended family.
On the outside, everything looked normal. A happy, small town Texas family. On the inside though… things were very different. I want to get my story out, at my own pace. Being raised an only child by a “charismatic, godly, pious” mother I feel gives me a different perspective as a survivor.
I do lots of research on anything and everything that I think helps me to navigate this Journey of Healing and Recovery. This is my coping mechanism. I also journal, make collage art, took up sewing again, and bake.
Graceful Dancing for me means keeping my head held high, continuing to move forward, and not letting what I am going through weigh me down. Every time someone asks me my favorite band, it’s Blue October. (With Linkin Park coming in at a close second.) This song has stuck with me for many years, but then one day it was like getting hit by lightning. I heard it and got it. I understood. No matter what, I have to keep Graceful Dancing. I’m gonna be ok.
In addition to sharing my Healing Journey, I look forward to sharing a little about my life, my cats and whatever else is happening.
Drop a Comment and say Hi
I currently reside in the Texas Hill Country. I’m working on getting P.O. Box when the need comes up… till then feel free to drop me an email.
Sometimes the Journey takes a drastic change in direction, through a parting of the trees or crossing the rapids. I fell of my path in 2025 and into the rushing rapids. With love and support from the ones I chose to call Family, I pulled myself up on the other side. After taking a long break from posting, I now realize that I’m calmer, freer, and more at peace writing and sharing my story. There are many ways I’m looking to share it. One reason I do this, is hopefully someone will know that they are not alone. Blessings and HUGS!